It's my birthday.

Yepp. This is my second birthday that I spend pregnant.
I don't mind it at all.
I didn't spend it at all. Uneventful up to now. I'm waiting for my husband to come home.

So to organizing.
I ended up making a MENU!
It's the worst menu anyone has ever seen because it has some blank spots.
But I think it's pretty good.
The food is awesome. So far (2 days lol) the food has been delish and no one has left hungry.
The menu has breakfast, lunch and dinner. Also snacks!
Honestly, I am very proud of my self.
The only sucky part about it is that we spent almost $110 for just a week worth of food.
But it starts us off and hopefully by next time we don't get to spend that much. I'm trying to make it a budget of $300 a month for food, but I have to realize that it's for 4 adults and a child. And one of those adults is preggers. It's looking like we will be spending around $400 a month.

We (my husband and I) have come to the conclusion that we will most likely be staying here (at my mom's house) for a bit longer than we wanted. At least until baby is born. Which would work out great because I have to have a cesarean :( I wasn't too happy about that. Everyone was telling me that it's a better way, that blah blah blah. Idk, I felt like they were just lazy and didn't want to have their kids natural. The doctor clearly cleared them to have a natural birth, but they wanted to have a C-section. Sometimes I feel like everything that is supposed to be natural is being made into something that is bad, for example, breastfeeding. The same people told me that it was not a good idea. If I wanted to drink alcohol I should not breastfeed at all. I breastfed my son, I drank once in a while, but I was not stupid enough to give him my tit right after I drank. I researched and asked questions. I wanted to have a natural birth with my first son, but I ended up having an emergency C-section because turns out, he was pretty much dying. I missed the natural birth mark by 2 months!!! Doctor told me that I would be able to give natural birth after my last C-section had healed 24 months. Well, baby's due date is at 22 months healed. So it's not necessarily considered "healed" because it did several months of stretching. And instead of being numb, my scar decides to start hurting on one of it's sides. Doctor had to have another talk with me about. He talked about a window. I'll leave it at that for your imagination to do it's best.
So yes, I'm very disappointed but after what happened to my husband's sister in law, we don't want to repeat what has already happened. Besides, if I really do have a window, I do not want baby to die, nor do I want to die. On the upside! We get to see him a week early (39 weeks.) This surgery wont be as bad as the last one. We wont stay in the hospital as long as last time (we tried to get induced and ended up staying 3 days aside from the 3 C-section days.) And we heard that healing is a lot better this time around, doctor still say 6 weeks, but from personals they said that walking was a lot better and so on.

Thanks for letting me vent. I had a lot of feelings and emotions pent up deep inside. My tummy has been giving me some pain the last couple day. He's gaining almost a pound per week. So I've been really bitchy lately. To everyone. Even strangers on the phone. My husband should be home soon, with some chocolate something! Hells yeah! This 23 year old is pretty happy, happy, happy!

Much love,

Abbii <3